Here is the New Year & all my plans I made have gone to hell. I am going through alot of changes right now to make myself feel better, since I allowed myself to get unhealtly.

So in 3 months I plan to be back to my old self & hopefully more confident about myself since I have lost my self confidence & self esteem.

Here we go.... don't disappoint me 2009.

Not only is the thought of my house being ruined weighing on my mind, but Friday I got a call from my co-worker who works in my department at the courthouse. I gave my supervisior my cell number to contact me to inform me as to what will happen after the hurricane. Apparently my supervisor did not give it to her immediated supervisor to let the rest of us know as to what is going on.

The Wed before the hurricane struck, there was a note taped on the time clock saying to watch the news & that would let us know what to do. So all the news is saying is that we cannot go back on the island. How am I going to goto work if I do not have the correct authority to do so?

Needless to say, my co-worker said that they are going to be laying people off because there is limited work to do. How is this our fault? Did we cause the hurricane? This is yet another burden that has been weighing me down. Can this year get any worse? How much can one human being take before they break down & scream ENOUGH?

Im sure smart ass comments will be posted in here, but for you little boys who live off your parents someone of us are adults & have to pay for our way through life.

Mentally I feel broken, I can't deal with anymore of this life changing shit.

Thanks to all of you who have called or texted me. Your words of encouragement mean alot at a time like this.

Sincerely,

Valerie

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If you don't know who Lady Day is, then shame on you. One of the greatest jazz/blues vocalist from the 1930's until her death on July 17, 1959.

She was a performer in a time of segregation & yet her powerful voice tore through the color barriers. As all great performers suffer from demons, Lady Day became addicted to heroine due to constant touring in the mid 1930's. It took a great toll on her life & made her look older than she was.

As I was walking in one of the many shops in my town, I heard the voice of Lady Day mixed with some modern dance music. I asked the sales man if they had anymore copies & he said no. I felt a ting of sadness because it was so beautifully done & began to leave the store. He called out to me & pulled out his copy that was being played in the story when he stated if I could answer some question about Lady Day he would sell me his personal copy for $10. Needless to say I got the CD & made a new friend who shares the love for Lady Day with me.

If you get the chance check it out & give it a listen.

Billie Holiday Remixed & Reimagined

R.I.P. Eleanora Fagan aka Billie Holiday aka Lady Day April 7, 1915 - July 17, 1959.

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It's so damn catchy!

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One of the most beautiful songs done by Massive Attack.

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Since Newgrounds was being antisocial to me & wouldn't let me get on for 4 days......

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